Stress Part XX

What a day! Where am I, what am I doing? Nightmare, nightmare, I can tell how bad things have got by the fact I have just scoffed an entire pepperoni pizza and could eat another one. Ideally tonight was meant to be a chilled out, bit of exercise and then review my pattern breakdown, if only that was the reality.

Didn't get back until gone 7pm and by the time I scoffed the pizza I just want to sit down and switch the brain off, I have so much crap zinging around my head due to work (the phone is still ringing) that by the time I start to switch off it will be bed time. I will have to really motivate myself for tomorrow as things are pretty serious, it has nothing to do with me but that's not the point, I am the person in the hot seat and that is that. I have to admit I entertained a fleeting fantasy of just jacking everything in, work, training the whole nine yards. I never would as I couldn't look at myself in the mirror if that's what happened when things get tough, just not who I am. I do need some way to decompress as I also have a national charity event I am going to in Cardiff Friday night and with Shelly looking after her Mum I am going to be doing a lot of running around all weekend, as well as fitting in a grading somewhere!