Not good, not good

Firstly apologies for the tone of this blog post, its going to be pretty down, this is just a reflection of where my head is at today. This week has been one of the worst for a long time, luckily no one has been hurt, no one has died but in terms of how I am feeling personally its shit! Work has been particularly difficult this week as I am assisting in reshaping our entire sales operation and its making for a monumental headache and tonnes of work and stress that I had hoped had been put behind me a while ago. To add to that my health has taken a bit of a dip this week, my previous post showed that my run earlier this week was highlighting something wasn't right, i was hoping it was just a dip in energy levels but its been a bit more than that. I have felt so drained of energy this week that I must be fighting off some sort of bug as my stomach problems have also been playing up, this in itself with a hectic work schedule is usually enough to knock me off my stride, but its also been coupled with some difficulty sleeping so not a great combination, overworked, overtired etc etc. To top it off my car decided to have a serious engine problem which looks like it won't give me much change back from £1500, so forgive me if i take today to wallow in self pity and rant and rave like a madman (which I wont as I cant even work up the energy to do that)this is me at my lowest for a long time, not been training now for 2 weeks and the journey has most definitely been derailed for a moment. I cant even be arsed to moan anymore...

Running on empty

Well interesting day so far, I went out today for my usual lunchtime'ish 6 mile run and had a torrid time of it. I started off normally but by the time I had done the first mile and a half I could feel things weren't right. I felt tight and my breathing wasn't settling into its usual rhythm, thinking it was just taking me a bit longer to settle down I carried on, but as I got further on my legs were getting heavier and heavier. With this going on I decided to revise the distance and cut it short by making it an easier 4.5 mile route. However my energy was just depleting with every step so I ended up walking in sections just to give myself some respite. It wasn't that I was completely put of breath or anything like that, my body just wasn't giving me what I needed to keep a steady pace. It has been a long time since I have felt that sapped on a run and considering I have been running through torrential downpours and freezing winds ironic that on a mild ish day I conk out. Sitting here now thinking about what could have caused this I believe a combo of a pretty heavy, starchy diet the last few days with a lack of sleep (only been getting about 5-6 hours for the past week) has just drained me. I need to try and get a bit more fruit and veg into me and hopefully catch up on my sleep for the next few days as this weekend I have set myself a goal of an 8 mile, slow, run to see what a real distance starts to feel like. I just need to bear in mind what my body has told me today and do something about it.